Day 35 - do you think only organised life is good life?

Hey!!
Do you think discipline is must? Of course, any army person would say yes without any hesitation. But what about us ? Do you agree that a fixed routine, getting up at same time, eating same food, same activities  tend to get boring after a while.

I read ' vernoica decides to die' in my 12th standard. It had a small story about a housewife, who went into depression because she could not just cope with the regularity of her life. She had a good life, a rich husband, loving also, two perfect kids, a perfect house, no health issues but she went into depression because she did not know what to do with this everday perfect life. The book was full of small stories with mental patients suffering from some issues which majorly revolved around losing the will to live because they could not cope up with the 'normal' life, which we work for normally. What was wrong with these people? I still do not get it.

This book left a deep depression on me and post that I stopped reading any of Paulo Coelho's books. Since forever now i fear routines, i hate settled life, i just feel i am going to end up like one of his characters if i will get settled in a particular way. I do not know whether i will get out pf it or not but i know i want peace now, an ending. But then i fear, that  perfect ending would just be the end of everything for  me. Big dilemma!!

Bye!